Submitted by talkopenfreely

It was the beginning of the school year. Little did I know someone this year was going to change my life. The way I thought, the way I did things and the way I acted. I am a girl. I thought I was straight. I didn’t think that I would fall for a girl.

I didn’t know her that well at first. She is nice, wild, and daring. She is in only one of my classes and she’s a grade ahead of me. I had lunch with her. I guess lunch is what got me closer to her.

After 2 months into the year, (November) she was going out with another friend of mine. Around the end of the month however I developed feelings for her. I didn’t know why I was feeling it, I just did. I wanted to be closer to her.

Now her and her girlfriend / ex have some problems. They on and off date, and have falling outs every week almost. I became closer and helped both of them through their falling outs. They told me how they felt about things.

One night (December 22nd), I get a text. This text is from my crush, and it says “How do you really feel about me?”. I didn’t really know what to think. I numbly type into my phone “I likeyou”. I sent it. I was shaking at this point, because i’m bad at these kind-of-things. The response shocked me..

“Really?! I had no idea! No way!”. Thought she would have been disgusted or something. This was at the time after a falling out. Of course this led to me asking her out, and she said yes.

Next few days were different.. After I had only gone out with her for two days, she broke up with me because o the drama from her ex. I was broken. She told me she didn’t date friends. I felt so stupid.

It took me awhile to get over this. Her and her ex continued to date on and off along with another girl that got added into the mix.

This month, it’s February. I’m confused and i’m hurt. She continues sending me mixed signals, and she sends me texts saying she would choose me over another girl. Whenever she gets back with her ex, it hurts me.

Thing is it’s been almost 4 moths now and I can’t get over her, I’ve never felt this way before.. and I think I love her.

Well that sounds pretty messed up as a situation. For sure I can never know how bad you may feel and how hard it can be to see her, to be still in touch with her after all these in addition to your feelings in the way you do. However, she doesn’t seem sure about her feelings either, especially when it comes to what is going on between she and her ex, she just sounds uncertain. Here is what I think, I guess you should let it go, or it is at least what I would do, don’t get me wrong. She cannot give you signals and keep texting you in such way while still hanging out with her ex, as if you are on her hook, or you are a back-up plan, you know? If she would choose you, then she should have already done it, as she does not have a right to mess up your feelings — she should stop giving you hope about it.

Well, again, this is what I think. Guys, she would like to also hear from you about this; so what do you think?

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